Worse than Rape -: Rape of the Emerging Self

There  is the trauma of someone coaxing out the small child self, encouraging the small child self to emerge, getting that small child part  to have a voice, show her emotions, begin to trust, begin to reach out and hold on to a finger, begin to feel that maybe she matters, begin to feel she is 'real' , that maybe her needs and sorrows and rages and confusion have a reason - having a person encourage that small child to then attach and love the person, the person who is being so adamant about how trust worthy and committed they are, how sincere and loyal and determined they are to be there for that little child, that person being so determinedly convincing in how they are going to make the child trust and emerge and attach and for it to be safe enough- and then

that person sends an email to say they have decided not to be there for her/that small child part -  anymore. Or announces they are stopping seeing the client.

that is the trauma worse than rape, for me. 

That is the trauma that does not heal. It has happened several times - in different ways with different people. Each of them I loved and trusted as only a very small child can.

this trauma is not recognised by society. there is no forum or organisation set up to support survivors of it. there is no recognition of the damage and pain and dismantling it causes me. There is no term for it even. I have no way to refer to it.  

I have wondered about calling it 'rape of the emerging self'. It needs to have a strong label, one that conveys clearly how bad it is. 

anybody got any ideas? It is severe 'child abuse' but not in the conventional sense.

It seems one can heal from rape and CSA eventually, but this particular trauma is more difficult to heal from. The wounds go deep.  I wonder if it is because people refuse to hear that it is a trauma and refuses to acknowledge how severe a trauma it is?